I wanted to give you a quick update as so many have asked how I am doing…
I had the best surgery team taking care of me. They did everything they could to try and calm my fears. I even had someone rubbing my feet while I was in the OR and reassuring me they would take good care of me!! I had so many emotions that morning, but I constantly kept laying my fears and anxiety at the feet of Jesus. His peace covered my heart and I never doubted His presence as I went through the day.
My surgery went well, and I was able to go home Wednesday evening after surgery. The surgeon took out 5 of my lymph nodes and had them tested during surgery. All 5 of them came back negative, so she didn’t have to take out anymore!!!! All praise be to God for a clear report! They have sent my breast tissue and skin off to pathology. I will get the results of that report next Friday at my doctor’s appointment. So, please pray along with me that I will get a clean report. I’m praying the chemo did exactly what it was supposed to do.
I am at home now for the next 4-6 weeks so that I can heal. The next step will be radiation. I appreciate your prayers, texts, phone calls, cards, etc over the past few days. I have an AMAZING support system and I appreciate each of you!!!
So it’s done…all done…that horrible chemo that I’ve been taking for the past several months…I finally finished it on September 8th!!!!!! I made it all the way through! There were so many days I didn’t think I would make it, especially those last couple of rounds. I was to the point that I didn’t want to do another round…it was tough…oh so tough!!
So….since I’ve been off chemo, I have been resting and trying to get my strength back for the next path of this journey…surgery. On Wednesday, October 5th, I will be having a double mastectomy since I have the BRCA2 gene. Today was my last day at work for the next 4-6 weeks as I will be out on medical leave. I am having a really hard time leaving my students. However, I am trying to remind myself that they will be well taken care of by the amazing teachers I work with. 😉
FEAR…it has been creeping into my thoughts a lot this past week. It’s fear of the unknown. I’ve never had surgery before except c-sections. This is different…body parts will be lost. I will be completely sedated for several hours and I don’t know how things will be when I wake up. This has kept me up at night. I have prayed…and cried…and prayed…and cried. I know that He will give me grace and strength to get through this next step. He reminds me that I am to cast ALL of my cares, burdens, worries on HIM because He cares about me. He cares….He cares that I am fearful…He cares that I am scared…He cares that I am anxious. I love that He cares and He will give me peace that will consume my heart and mind. This is my constant prayer…Jesus I lay this burden at your feet and in return, please flood my heart and mind with your peace.
I have several prayer requests:
Please pray for my mind to be stayed on Him and not my circumstances
Please pray for my children during this time that they will not become anxious or worry about me
Pray for wisdom and guidance for the surgeon
Pray for a quick recovery and that there would not be any complications
I love Isaiah 41:10 so much and God has used it a lot in my life. It reminds me that God watches over me and is taking care of me. I just need to T R U S T…He is with me…He will strengthen me…He will uphold me…He is MY GOD!!
Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
It becomes a continuous giving of my deepest fears to Him and in exchange knowing that HE IS ABLE to carry that burden for me and give me the strength I need because He is for ME!!! I love this song that reminds me that He is able and all things can be overcome in His name…even all of my fears!!
