Well, this last round seemed to go much more smoothly than the first round…at least there were no ER visits! It has taken me awhile to get my energy and strength back up. I felt great for a few days after chemo and then it hit me on Sunday morning. I was so worn out and didn’t have much energy.  It has taken me several days, but I am slowly getting back to myself.  I am so grateful to have the summer so that I am able to give my body the rest it needs.  I went in Saturday to get fluids and an injection.  Each time I go in for chemo, I have to go back to Winship within 24-72 hours to get a Neulasta injection.  This medication helps my bone marrow to make white blood cells.  Since chemotherapy destroys cells, this injection helps to build back up my immune system.  The first time I had this injection, it caused severe bone pain almost a week afterwards.  I am hoping I don’t have to experience that again!

I continue to be surrounded by the most amazing friends!  God has truly blessed me beyond measure with the people He has placed in my life.  I could not walk this journey without, first of all, HIM and secondly YOU!!  Thank you for lifting me up in prayer, for being my cheerleader and encouraging me to press on.  Some days are easier for me than others.  This past week one of my children came home, sat down beside me, grabbed my hand, and started stroking it.  T h e n…the tears began to flow. It ripped my heart to pieces!!!  As the tears rolled down our cheeks together, they spoke of the sadness, pain, and questions…lots of questions…I mean lots of questions.  You know life just plain stinks sometimes.  My babies are walking through this just as much as I am, and I can’t control it or protect them from it.  Why do 4 little sweet souls have to walk down this path all over again?  Why do they have to deal with this at such a young age…not once, but twice?  Though there are so many questions that surface daily, I don’t doubt for one second that my Father is in control.  I have no idea what His plan is, but I know that His word tells me His plans for me are good.  I know that He promises He is with me and I’m not alone.  I know that He is faithful and He is good.

So, I will hold onto His promises as I begin this day because today is the day…I have lost so much hair that I will be shaving my head.  Please pray for me as I am so torn emotionally…part of me is not ready for this next step and the other part is ready to embrace it.

Satisfy me in the morning with your unfailing love Jesus that I may sing for joy and be glad all my days (Psalm 90:14)  May Your love cause me to sing for joy and be glad today.

xoxo ~ April